For the love of pain

Love and I
Walked together miles
Until we hit the daunting road
Only to bid adieu n goodbyes
Not even a single attempt to togetherness
I smiled with concealed grief
A gulf of unknowingness around
As love disappeared into the dark
Lost alone with no companion
While I wept in solitude
I looked around as it chuckled
It was the pain smiling at me
As I let it into my world
The pain cared for me lavishly
Unlike the ruthless love
That had betrayed me
We hung together for long
Clutching onto each other
With no wall of expectation
We were lost into each other entirely
And just when there felt a surety
That I had gathered from the setback
Love tried to invade again
Yet again to pull me apart
I saw the pain looking at me
Wearing the same smile it always did
Not bearing any questions in it's eyes
Letting me choose the side I wanted to be
How could I leave my dear pain
We had learned to grow into each other
Even if I did so
I would be no indifferent than a betrayer
At last I let the love pass by
With a huge sigh of relief
I had found an eternal bliss
In pain I had found my peace.

And he was gone!

Not sooner than any later
A never-before realization
Beginning to learn what she wanted
Was never really that far
Unless the time hadn't played on her
Did she not deserve to know any earlier
While the destiny watched it all happen
So did an audience of her own emotions
Hiding beneath the surface
At last made its way
She felt tempted to unveil
The piece her fate was holding ahead
Happy to have realized
Yet prone to anxiety
What if it was all rootless
What if this stream was now only flowing one side
Her fear finally creeped in
Reminding of the time she had lost
Will she dive into an ocean of affection
Or drown deep in the pool of regrets
Finally she dared to turn around
To the moment she had left behind
Except to step closer to another realization
The moment was gone
He was gone!

In her memory

And it’s already been a year now
as we remember her yet again today
wanting to bring her back
but only if tears could build a stairway..
He needed another angel
in the choir of his heavenly
so she had to leave all of us
at the cost of making us lonely..
At least, that’s what I thought
until I heard an angel say
she has always been around
she is with you every day..
Like the sun, the moon, the sky
like the air that is forever around
will always remind of the love she shared
and the peace she’s finally found..
So make her feel happy
smile, as she would want to see
carry her love and memories in your heart
and thou shall make her soul rest in peace..

So called life!

And, if loneliness could kill
I wonder why ain't I dead by now
Coz no one else but myself
Knows I'm lonely and how..

Its such an astonishing deception
How in my life, colors they find
May be they can't see through well
Or may be I am the one - colorblind..

Definitely not the best of feelings
To embrace the sadness and pain
But when happiness starts aching
It all feels just the same..

To keep it forever or let it go
Neither is easy, whatever choice you make
Life will come its own way
Either you decide to leave or take..

Bas tu hi tu

koi aahat jo mere kaano se takraye
toh mujhe tera hi nagma sunayi deta hai..
koi parchhayi bhi agar samne aa jaye
toh mujhe tera hi chehra dikhayi deta hai..

kyun main tujhe har waqt mehsoos karti hoon
kyun meri dhadkan tera hi geet gaati hai..
main ye jaanti hoon main tujhse bahot door hoon
fir kyun teri khushboo mujhe mehka jaati hai..

tere khayalo se meri subah jagti hai
fir teri yaado mein din dhal jaata hai..
aur meri neende ye soch kar chali aati hai
kam se kam tu khwabo mein toh milne aata hai..

nahi jaanti ye mere intehaan ka agaaz hai ya anjaam
ya shayad baaki hai aur koi intezaar..
kab ayega wo din jab hoga tu ru-ba-ru mujhse
meri nazarein taras rahi hai karne ko tera deedar....

Bas yu hi

Kuch chahatein dil mein chupaye nahi chupti
zubaan par na sahi par aankhon se jhalak hi jaati hai,
tujhe yaad naa karne ki kitni hi koshish kyun na karu
par teri yaad jaane kaha se aa hi jaati hai....

I feel better

Last when we met
Or if you wish to say, saw each other
You were pretty the same as before
Just the time when we were together

Or is it the case
That I have kind of forgotten
How you used to look
But the memories dont seem to be rotten

And if it holds true
That i still remember your right picture
Then why does it now feel
That you are a different creature

But heck, it aint the time
When I cried over you for hours
I am as free as I could be
My life no more weighs your bars

And, yeah, it feels fresh and light
Relieved from unwanted mass
Greeting the new sunshine
While I let go off the passe.....